tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63760372904012948612024-03-05T15:15:38.196-08:00Miss. Moneypenny speaksSize 8... I am coming for you!!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-78873447371351925172011-06-16T13:40:00.000-07:002011-06-16T13:54:25.402-07:00WW and IAs most of you know Weight Watchers and I have had a whirl wind relationship. Though its feelings towards me have never changed, always giving me constant information and support through meetings with a plan that only improves with change. However, I, I have loved and hated it both so deeply. I had great success with the diet in 2000 and when I allowed life to convince me that I did not need it I put all the weight back on. I tried time and time again to follow the plan on my own and have not had success since the first time.<br /><br />People always say there is a point in your life when you know in your heart that you are ready to give in and give control up. I hit that point when I took a look at these pictures.<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfUnlRbvigQFQ6ZXsTUzFtWu-w_F9HWWmH3c4lfOFEB660W4QN5wCZ809ZyKzGri4boCiJ0Kg7svLjbPROG3nw8za0CgXafjxSG8b6__Mb7n5dspKRoW8Zbhu0J2CUt_0HdlR9enzIQ4UH/s1600/255612_1966448955111_1059511187_32010849_6298876_n.jpg"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 418px; height: 313px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfUnlRbvigQFQ6ZXsTUzFtWu-w_F9HWWmH3c4lfOFEB660W4QN5wCZ809ZyKzGri4boCiJ0Kg7svLjbPROG3nw8za0CgXafjxSG8b6__Mb7n5dspKRoW8Zbhu0J2CUt_0HdlR9enzIQ4UH/s320/255612_1966448955111_1059511187_32010849_6298876_n.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5618921846468126786" border="0" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmMMmRm5T0WlLtm7WKVn0VtgbkC0jYO1ukm64wUxWvFL4IJ_BuAIuBXLP3bEbYsgX7cNRFL2srwi0Rz0q79EId67FVg2cRWtl4xgCYAfBTiL8zB2OKw8pE2Tpdvos_bdKXW77-7lHbBn-z/s1600/Another+large+one.jpg"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 234px; height: 344px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmMMmRm5T0WlLtm7WKVn0VtgbkC0jYO1ukm64wUxWvFL4IJ_BuAIuBXLP3bEbYsgX7cNRFL2srwi0Rz0q79EId67FVg2cRWtl4xgCYAfBTiL8zB2OKw8pE2Tpdvos_bdKXW77-7lHbBn-z/s320/Another+large+one.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5618922072246353522" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />It was the picture of me in my green sweatshirt that sealed the deal. I re-joined WW on Monday and and not looking back!<br /><br />I am on day 4 and this is usually the point I start to lose my inspiration. I feel great! I am loving the new Points Plus program and am making changes not only in my diet but in other areas of my life!<br /><br />This is going to remain one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but with the support of all of my loved ones... I am going to do this!<br /><br />Here are my stats, I will include my WW weight loss along with the total loss since I started this blog.<br /><br />Start Weight: 230.5<br />Today: 216.2 (WW first weigh in)<br />Total +/- since blog start: -14.3<br />Loss since joining WW: ...we will see next week!!<br /><br />I was so pleasantly surprised when I weighed in on Monday, I had lost over a pound since last week! YAY!!<br /><br />I love you all!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-58470297156313577542011-06-07T13:33:00.000-07:002011-06-07T13:43:24.898-07:00HELP!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiANx4pbC-DKjwQ7pCXZLf1CMlfMqh543jkWtzZA0wKYy8vABKRxVOe6UQckxt2WUAuMLTcu6Fo8YTQ2LXPVc3V02xbIoEVdm6yGWpyKxd6Cdp_ZUAWjujWTjbJe954EmWzDPkgHQs_N33/s1600/HELP.png"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 276px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgiANx4pbC-DKjwQ7pCXZLf1CMlfMqh543jkWtzZA0wKYy8vABKRxVOe6UQckxt2WUAuMLTcu6Fo8YTQ2LXPVc3V02xbIoEVdm6yGWpyKxd6Cdp_ZUAWjujWTjbJe954EmWzDPkgHQs_N33/s320/HELP.png" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5615580970657474082" border="0" /></a><br />Here it is...<br /><br />I am sending out a shout out to all of my friends out there.<br /><br />I have a favor.<br /><br />I can not do this on my own.<br /><br />I know it.<br /><br />I was wondering if I could have some of you volunteer to be my coach. You could offer me one day, a few days,... whatever. What I would ask is that I could call you in the morning of the days we work out and I go over my goals for the day. That is all. It will just be my morning reality check. I will also tell you how I did the previous days. Once we get the business out of the way we can chat! :) Just message me on facebook, call me, or reply to this post and we can get it all worked out. I thank you in advance!<br /><br />Here is my week:<br />This week lets start with the numbers:<br />Start Weight: 230.5<br />Today: 217.5<br />Total +/-: -13<br /><br />Down another pound! YAY!! I am so afraid I will be going the other way soon. I see myself slipping and I need help.<br /><br />Sorry this is so short! I love you all!!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-25045752893624431672011-06-01T05:52:00.000-07:002011-06-01T06:11:06.570-07:00Easy come, easy....go?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBJf7p6KS7SS4_nP6kqLWA-E_DRaG5WjRhJ37e5yK48hYJW16IjvOh8wpHJ0AMVKPF-8OwCXa6WvRD0CLdgHN_Dp9o1mb3HkTqkyMr3S_v8dd0WASfJM7H8gXM2lmay209D5b8uMQfD01M/s1600/DSC02905.JPG"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBJf7p6KS7SS4_nP6kqLWA-E_DRaG5WjRhJ37e5yK48hYJW16IjvOh8wpHJ0AMVKPF-8OwCXa6WvRD0CLdgHN_Dp9o1mb3HkTqkyMr3S_v8dd0WASfJM7H8gXM2lmay209D5b8uMQfD01M/s320/DSC02905.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5613237659635468258" border="0" /></a><br />This week lets start with the numbers:<br />Start Weight: 230.5<br />Today: 218.5<br />Total +/-: -12<br /><br />No change. I was really thinking there would be a gain there because I had my last day at the theater last week. Wow did that throw me in for a doozy! What a sad emotional day! It was not however only my last day at the theater, but also the day Adie learned to crawl! I consider it that day a great day of firsts and lasts. It also reminded me that my little lady is now mobile and I will need to start keeping up with her, no more half assing this, I need to get it together!<br /><br />I was on the phone with a lady last week and we were talking about how hard losing weight actually is. She said, "Easy come, easy go! That does not apply to weight loss!" All I could think of was how true! It seems like it is so easy to pack on the pounds because you do not think about it while it is happening. However, when you are trying to take it back off it is all you can think about!<br /><br />ZUMBA tonight!! I hope anyone and everyone can be here! We have such a good time. Also- not to bring you by with food, but I have a fresh pineapple that i am going to cut for the occasion. :)<br /><br />Have a great week everyone! I will post more next week!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-41360160123346499112011-05-17T13:18:00.000-07:002011-05-17T13:36:48.310-07:00Never say die!I hope you all are having a wonderful week!! I have been BUSY! If you tried to read my post form last week and it was not there, for some reason blogger had to take away all posts that were posted on a certain day for a bit... but it is back now so please feel free to check it out!<br /><img src="file:///C:/Users/Sarah/AppData/Local/Temp/moz-screenshot.png" alt="" /><br />Well I guess the big news in my life is I bought a bike! I love it! I did a one mile ride today before posting this... and wow, is it work! I think that thing that hurts the most is my butt!! :) My thighs were burning, but my butt was screaming. Please say it gets better! :) I would love to be riding up to a few miles a day before we leave on vacation so I can ride around the beautiful grounds are cabins are on. Lets be honest, I feel a little wicked witch of the west when I am riding... do-do-do-do-duh-do.....<br /><br />ZUMBA last week was amazing!! What a work out! I had so much fun with the girls. :) Please join us this week if you can!<br /><br />Now, lets talk about diet. I am loving being on Weight Watchers.... but I am finding so may challenges! I really am my own worst enemy. Lets take a look at my Thursday.... I work form 9am until I can leave the theater... usually around 11pm. My brain tells me that I should give myself a little treat because I am working SOOOO Hard! Where did I learn that rewards always need to come in the form of some sort of food? It is such a hard habit to break. However, I have found little that feels as rewarding. This is my challenge, this is what I need to work on and re-program in my head.<br /><br /><br />Here are my stats for the week: :)<br />Start Weight: 230.5<br />Today: 218.5<br />Total +/-: -12<br /><br />Down 2 pounds form last week!<br /><br />I have broken the 219 barrier that has been holding me back!! I am so excited about this! Now I need to keep up the hard work and not give up! ... Goonies Never Say Die! ...and yes, I will do the truffle shuffle for you if requested. :)<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjuu9Bh68PlWH9uw7QKpa7PDZNa7oZVhhtbhyphenhyphenlszoyt7VKJt9eZMoMPpsgTelLGc3e2PW08eN9YrVF3PQPBaRFs8UheO-7Inp8KhbYF4J476Y_eU4OhViLZSIoiQECTfchN6ERkWv7bzQqV/s1600/goonies.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjuu9Bh68PlWH9uw7QKpa7PDZNa7oZVhhtbhyphenhyphenlszoyt7VKJt9eZMoMPpsgTelLGc3e2PW08eN9YrVF3PQPBaRFs8UheO-7Inp8KhbYF4J476Y_eU4OhViLZSIoiQECTfchN6ERkWv7bzQqV/s320/goonies.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5607786655425318354" border="0" /></a><br />I hope everyone has a great week! Talk to you all soon.CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-56389639669996145302011-05-11T14:43:00.000-07:002011-05-13T13:22:27.235-07:00The world keeps spinning.I know why I have waited until Wednesday to post this. I would like to say it was because I have been SOOOOO busy. But it is not. It is because I gained 1 pound back. I know I am more dissappointed with myself than anyone else. I can even point out the 55 things that I believe could have attributed this gain back.<br /><br />...but I know 2 things. The world keeps spinning, and I am NOT giving up!<br /><br />Start Weight: 230.5<br />Today: 220.5<br />Total +/-: -10<br /><br />I have been doing my best to focus more on working out then I ever have. I am trying not to be unrealistic. In fact, if I get a 1 mile walk in for the day I am proud of myself. I can see myself in the future finally doing the 3 day breast cancer walk that I feel is so important for me to do! Right now though, I am just starting and I am happy where I am.<br /><br />Zumba tonight at 6:30! I had such a good time last week! It is so much fun to work out with friends!! Come and join us!!<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjx1z34FPMguhtcWOsL2uGvJW145e1juPahK_ysj7Ln5Hew4klx0OH5K4SlbGgs_yjoCG3kIJophGzt5u-G8czBiOIl-cNnVcN05_T0LNOtMrWYC1YzRumN-B5ELH6KGo0TDMshzyT9ihNI/s1600/U.P.jpg"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjx1z34FPMguhtcWOsL2uGvJW145e1juPahK_ysj7Ln5Hew4klx0OH5K4SlbGgs_yjoCG3kIJophGzt5u-G8czBiOIl-cNnVcN05_T0LNOtMrWYC1YzRumN-B5ELH6KGo0TDMshzyT9ihNI/s320/U.P.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5605581254985601170" border="0" /></a>I have my vacation set for July! I am getting so excited. Scott, Adie, and I along with family are going to the UP and renting cottages. I can not wait to make new memories a show Adie around!! Along with relaxing, I plan on hanging out with some black bears, eat the best flurry ever, see wild life, visit with my family, go to picture rocks, and just enjoying all that life has to offer!!<br /><br />I would like to be in better shape! I would love to feel better about putting a swim suit on. This vacation is a perfect thing to focus on and work towards! :)CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-52699130745839875992011-05-02T10:01:00.000-07:002011-05-02T10:25:53.253-07:00Books, books, books!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRJXu6z_bj0Usq4B8qCpP1RZNqJf0PjDr8S2uKl6ipgPMQ-kQUoWvTc73xh9fFLPSfZEo0aOBR1STveHgTuy3lZS2ljDy3p7H8A04ZW5-XrRsT4kZ4KePJuYqwfKUeWoxgEnY5iyj3gxNa/s1600/1lg3fancyladybum.jpg"><img style="float: left; margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; cursor: pointer; width: 222px; height: 299px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRJXu6z_bj0Usq4B8qCpP1RZNqJf0PjDr8S2uKl6ipgPMQ-kQUoWvTc73xh9fFLPSfZEo0aOBR1STveHgTuy3lZS2ljDy3p7H8A04ZW5-XrRsT4kZ4KePJuYqwfKUeWoxgEnY5iyj3gxNa/s320/1lg3fancyladybum.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5602165871211941714" border="0" /></a><br />I did some gardening this weekend... the only difference between me and the lady bending over here is my bloomers were red with blue dots! Hahaha!<br /><br />Just kidding. However, when I was gardening, these wood cut outs did come to my mind. I never understood them when I was young... and skinny... and fit. I am excited to see how much better I feel as I continue on this journey. To know how difficult some things are now and how they could be so much easier!<br /><br />Books-oh-books! I have been going thorough my house and getting some much needed clean out done. I have come across my proven weight loss trick! ....or I guess that is what I would have liked to believe when I purchased many, oh so many, books with the golden diet.<br /><br />Here is a small list... I sadly know there I will find more...<br />1. Make over your metabolism. 4 weeks to a faster metabolism and fitter, firmer body.<br />2. Dr. Phil s Ultimate Weight loss Solution.<br />3. Eat Smart, Walk Strong. Leslie Sansone's diet and exercise book.<br />4. Alli diet book.<br />5. 8 minuets in the morning.<br />6. Many, Many Weight Watchers books.<br />7. (the kicker!) 21 Pounds in 21 Days.<br />8. Mindless Eating.<br /><br />I will not sit here and say these books meant nothing, or taught me nothing. They all did. I have learned something from all of them. I just think how sad it is that I have books going back at least 10 years. That is how long my struggle has been! It is so easy to have someone say they have the cure and I just want to believe so bad!<br /><br />What all these books have taught me is that I have to find it within myself. To pick an eating plan I know I can stay on and focus on that one.<br /><br />I chose Weight Watchers! They continue to grow and change and improve. I am excited to tell you my success!!<br /><br />Start Weight: 230.5 (from blog start)<br />Last week's re-start weight: 224.0<br />Today: 219.5<br />Total +/-: -11<br /><br />BAM! Down 4.5 pounds from last week! I feel so different this time. I feel a strength coming through me giving me the power not to give up! It will be so easy for me to give up, but with all of you by my side I am strong!<br /><br />Thank you all!<br /><br />Remember- Zumba this Wednesday! Please let me know if you are coming. The number of people will tell me where we will Zumba at (upstairs or down).CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-29942125034664587052011-04-27T11:13:00.001-07:002011-04-27T11:32:12.871-07:00Today is a new day!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbcQ16OL03GlawI1ZB2PB_bX91NhtZhL4JTok1DAxRm5cAnizyaiWIP3lr0764W43upHQZTGeLVH99lApY6r2u-PioIr4rP_GQk6U2rRkprwa1HzNMutI6fKxh7GOZ4y1ruod5rshNVLUd/s1600/volbeathoodie_x2.png"><img style="float: right; margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; cursor: pointer; width: 234px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbcQ16OL03GlawI1ZB2PB_bX91NhtZhL4JTok1DAxRm5cAnizyaiWIP3lr0764W43upHQZTGeLVH99lApY6r2u-PioIr4rP_GQk6U2rRkprwa1HzNMutI6fKxh7GOZ4y1ruod5rshNVLUd/s320/volbeathoodie_x2.png" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5600329913685729266" border="0" /></a><br />Hello all!<br /><br />Sorry this is coming to you 2 days late! With trying to finish up my final and catching up on some work, this was one of the things that I could wait to write until today... but today was my deadline!! :)<br /><br />I did weigh myself on Monday morning so I do have accurate information for you.<br /><br />Re-start Weight: 224.0<br /><br />My first goal is to get to 200 pounds by August 10. Why August 10? Because my husband said he would by me a much needed new motherboard for my computer if I make it!<br /><br />We made a side bet also.... He would like to lose 15 pounds (Whatever!!) Who ever loses their set amount of weight first gets a Volbeat sweatshirt. He has to lose 15 and I have to lose 24. It may sound a little unfair, but I know I can win!<br /><br />I think I may have an unfair advantage. I am going to do Weight Watchers. I know, I know... but third time has to be a charm right!? I really think I will be able to stick with it because not only is my cousin an amazing support to me, but my Dad and Beth are also on the program. They actually spoke to me about it last night and it inspired me to want to do it with them! I know with the three of them to support me and all of you, I can not fail!<br /><br />DON'T FORGET!! You are all invited to Zumba Wednesdays at my house starting May 5th! Bring a veggie or healthy snack to share if you would like. It starts at 6:30. We will do it every Wednesday from then on. We will start with the Zumba introduction (its about an hour) to get the moves down. If we still feel like we need some more practice, we will do the introduction the next week. This is going to be an at your own pace thing, so only do what you can. If you feel like pushing yourself, do it!!<br /><br />Thank you everyone for your support! I am excited to see the scale next Monday!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-41231581437442865422011-04-20T20:15:00.000-07:002011-04-20T20:34:23.193-07:00BelieveSometimes it takes someone else to believe in you before you can believe in yourself.... and sometimes that is not even enough. You all believed in me, and I felt I let you down when the weight would not come off. I wanted to be strong, I wanted it not to bother me, but it did... so I did what I do best, I gave up.<br /><br />I will no longer allow that for myself. I can not give up! I have someone that depends on me and the way I have been treating myself will only harm her in the long run. Since January I have let myself go, and with that i have almost put all of the weight back on. Not only have I put the weight back on, but I no longer wear makeup, do my hair, or care what I look like when I leave the house. Touch of depression? Possibly. More likely it is a case of focusing on everything else in my life except myself. From school, to my first job, to my second job,... to my third job and my beautiful 7 month old baby I have taken all focus off myself and have in my mind become invisible.<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj50V5EJYD7bt54P1Fk7-m13vXqJfiQnGf2mcuzhX1YSGrniiUE2eWRtT9m3pr6_Qy3pjcju65TfOzNV_ZXCFZxbihd2NSwqGzE4tAPBEZOLLr7yHQJFRbJYZUWt7yTaK8d3vpIuvQD7Jxn/s1600/invisable+woman.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 200px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj50V5EJYD7bt54P1Fk7-m13vXqJfiQnGf2mcuzhX1YSGrniiUE2eWRtT9m3pr6_Qy3pjcju65TfOzNV_ZXCFZxbihd2NSwqGzE4tAPBEZOLLr7yHQJFRbJYZUWt7yTaK8d3vpIuvQD7Jxn/s320/invisable+woman.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5597874345836130674" border="0" /></a><br />I am not invisible. I am here and worth being looked at.<br /><br />What I ask of you, my friends, please do not give up on me! I can do this with your help and support. :)<br /><br />Good news... I now use my outlook calendar and have my blog and weigh in scheduled for every week! If you do not see my post... bother me until you do! :)<br /><br />I love you all--thank you for everything!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-23611725610394696462011-01-11T05:01:00.000-08:002011-01-11T05:20:03.224-08:00Week 7I know.... a day late. I tell you, working part time is so exhausting!! :)<br /><br />My weight has not changed from last week... YAY!<br />Start Weight: 230.5<br />Last Week: 219<br />This Week: 219<br /><br />Total Loss.... 11.5.<br /><br />I am not surprised I did not lose, I know during stressful times the weight will not come off, no matter how much you wish it would. I may be part time, but with going back to school and doing some work from home I feel like I am going a million directions at once. I think after I get a few weeks under my belt, I will be feeling much better!<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVjEesUMb26cN3Ca0hfp_K-lRuVvyAQ1xLAhdmXrIDamoRHh0UsKEA3szIHVG4C08z07Iiyd3kgs6p_ijgjAD9iN7UjUZcuVOVGyhX3VO40RwtzTQjctsRsFMfqkLvwOA4e4m45yLOl8AK/s1600/stress.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 298px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVjEesUMb26cN3Ca0hfp_K-lRuVvyAQ1xLAhdmXrIDamoRHh0UsKEA3szIHVG4C08z07Iiyd3kgs6p_ijgjAD9iN7UjUZcuVOVGyhX3VO40RwtzTQjctsRsFMfqkLvwOA4e4m45yLOl8AK/s320/stress.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5560917306123621506" border="0" /></a><br />How did things work out with going top part time at work? Well, I know they are screwing us over. The worst part is that there is nothing I can do about it. I think that is what has me the most stressed. I feel like, well, I wanted this, I asked for it, now I just have to take what ever it is they give to me with no complaint. I just wish there was a way I could tell them that I know they are being completely lame because I really think they think that I am in a clueless bubble! The worst part is I am not the only one who is getting the raw end of the deal, and for that I feel guilty. I wish I could say more here... I wish I could blast it from the roof top how bad they have made me feel, but I must sit here in silence.<br /><br />On top of it all... my car has taken a sick day. I brought her to the car hospital this morning. Now we wait for the prognosis. I hope she can be fixed.... and for a good price. I never realized how much I depend on that car, I kind of miss knowing that she is right outside. :)CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-13084043609553850432011-01-05T09:21:00.000-08:002011-01-05T09:40:53.629-08:00HeavyI was cleaning a theater yesterday when a preview for the new show on A&E called Heavy came on. I stopped and within the first few moments was pulled into this new world A&E is creating. I am now extremely excited for this show. I am no where near the weight people on this show are, but I could understand everything that they were feeling and how it got so bad. It made me very thankful for who I am and what I am working towards.<br /><br />Check the show out!<br />http://www.aetv.com/heavy/<br /><br />I love the concept because it is not about wining money or getting voted off, it is about changing lives!<br /><br />On a note about work... I start my part time status on Friday! I am very nervous and extremely excited all at the same time! :)<br /><br />...also...<br />I have a new goal for Just Dance 2... get through the song Jump. That song is a killer!!<br /><br />CONGRATULATIONS TO MY COUSIN JUDY!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK GIRL!! YOU ARE LOOKING AMAZING! :)<br /><br /><br /><br />I hope everyone has an amazing rest of the week!!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-19441401683183796422011-01-03T07:39:00.000-08:002011-01-03T07:53:38.734-08:00Week 6!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXKwYbty1RuEf3JYFQX78ky5JEeD2RjBiUdPSQSVdNRn2ZFgu4YqVdun-c-3Nx9t3TcBnHtmbRecU1MbDIWV4d6B3zLiN3UIsCXUZ9Zw7rvOg7EwUjlOpt2ffr7mBi8lqldoKd_dKJh3Iy/s1600/Resize+of+Just_Dance_2_screenshot_ProudMary_DanceBattleMode-screenshot.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 180px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXKwYbty1RuEf3JYFQX78ky5JEeD2RjBiUdPSQSVdNRn2ZFgu4YqVdun-c-3Nx9t3TcBnHtmbRecU1MbDIWV4d6B3zLiN3UIsCXUZ9Zw7rvOg7EwUjlOpt2ffr7mBi8lqldoKd_dKJh3Iy/s320/Resize+of+Just_Dance_2_screenshot_ProudMary_DanceBattleMode-screenshot.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5557986009236247170" border="0" /></a>Hello everyone!!<br /><br />I decided to spend some of my Christmas money on an amazing Wii game called Just Dance 2. It is so much fun! You dance to different songs and get 'sweat points'. I look totally stupid while I am doing it... and love every moment of it! :)<br /><br />Here are my stats for this week:<br />Start Weight: 230.5<br />Last Week: 223.5<br />This Week: 219<br /><br />Total Loss.... 11.5!!<br /><br />I am so excited about this loss! However my mind is telling me that something is wrong with my scale........<br /><br />Happy dancing everyone!!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-83781779153021102842011-01-02T10:06:00.001-08:002011-01-02T10:16:57.575-08:00Hello 2011!!<div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9rS6xEcQobwk7g5xzMneNb7WKTCESeIqRMaFfSYmjSLl_zzCPa4puocRY2oSi3rs4ujGRcXcoPRro6NK2xF_DD1OsdZdQIFaKH7DEIAUviWD01EccU_ZmziZFHQNAkpefxCH2v2bFVwJh/s1600/8360-colorful-pictures-fireworks_display-night-time-blasts.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9rS6xEcQobwk7g5xzMneNb7WKTCESeIqRMaFfSYmjSLl_zzCPa4puocRY2oSi3rs4ujGRcXcoPRro6NK2xF_DD1OsdZdQIFaKH7DEIAUviWD01EccU_ZmziZFHQNAkpefxCH2v2bFVwJh/s320/8360-colorful-pictures-fireworks_display-night-time-blasts.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5557651749935547586" border="0" /></a><span style="font-family: arial;">HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!</span><br /><br />I thought I would take a moment and let you all know what my New Years Resolution is. For 2011 I have decided to love myself no matter what size I am! Let's face it, how can I expect everyone else to love me if I can not love myself. I may never lose the weight.... I really want to, but reality is it may never happen. I can not be angry at myself for that anymore.<br /><br />I noticed that I never look at myself in the mirror. I look at my hair, or my eyes, or agonize about the size of my stomach, but never ever at my entire self. I know that sounds funny, but it is true. When I see myself in a picture my first thought is... I look like that!?<br /><br />I will tell myself 3 nice things everyday. It could be as simple as your hair looks good to thanking my legs for holding me up! :)<br /><br />I wish you all many blessings in 2011!! I love you!!<br /></div>CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-75060386012716585772010-12-27T08:43:00.001-08:002010-12-27T09:09:16.288-08:00Weigh In, Week 5<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSc4YF1lWK9mEi3zBcqROvvr_L-J0hzTR2ngYEJJmlkIbSWbaoLc7-cubu0dwKG-nWrTluz03rTUuMdaQDKDbxVt1RDPR101FqI0Oo_sNVjgDBcmPrM_i8JF44VXEcfDwEYUiSl4c-6oEE/s1600/Snoopy-Christmas-peanuts-452771_1280_960.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5555408960005958098" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSc4YF1lWK9mEi3zBcqROvvr_L-J0hzTR2ngYEJJmlkIbSWbaoLc7-cubu0dwKG-nWrTluz03rTUuMdaQDKDbxVt1RDPR101FqI0Oo_sNVjgDBcmPrM_i8JF44VXEcfDwEYUiSl4c-6oEE/s320/Snoopy-Christmas-peanuts-452771_1280_960.jpg" /></a><br /><div>Did you notice a few weeks kind of slipped by? Yeah they did, but I am starting again and I think that is what really matters. </div><br /><div>Here is my surprising numbers for the week:</div><div>Today's Weight: 223.5</div><div>Start Weight: 230.5</div><div>Total Loss: -7</div><br /><div>That's right, believe it or not I only gained .5 pounds back! Am I happy about this? Yes and no. I am happy because I ate what I wanted and did not focus on the working out like I wanted and I only gained a half of pound back! I am not happy with this because now I will have that little voice in the back of my head saying, look at how much you cheated and it did not affect you that much.... I really hate that little voice!</div><br /><div>A small update on my life that will help improve my weight loss is that I will soon be going to part time at the theater. It means so much scary stuff like loss of free insurance, a pay cut, no guaranteed hours, and just that loss of security. But with all that I am going to be afraid of, I am so thankful that I am going to be allowed to do it. I have found that my stress level going down, my bad habits that I have formed here such as all the fast food I eat, and the opportunity to spend more time with my Adie is so worth it! With the support of my wonderful husband and his comment that we will make it because we always do, I made the call and am now just waiting to see what they are officially going to do with me. I will keep you all updated on the progress. </div><br /><div>The good news is that I also have an amazing neighbor who is helping me get jobs that I am able to do at home. My official title is Virtual Assistant. I am able to help people from home accomplish tasks such as e-mail maintenance, website maintenance, blogging, facebook, twitter, as well as research and... well you get the point. I will be helping people with what they need me to do! I am so excited! </div><br /><div>Well- I hope everyone has an amazing week!!!! I will try and give you an update mid week to let you know how my diet is progressing. I am really hoping to go below the 223 mark!! :) </div><br /><div>LOVE YOU ALL!! </div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div></div>CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-62679117208044756122010-12-06T07:40:00.000-08:002010-12-06T08:07:10.751-08:00Weigh in, Week 4!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwXz65LyAuBY4Lmc8OZxXf4QtHHbN4q_yh8jdP64VaLnIDBCuXfRbNQyrHFtFX_AIgAMK1CsaOsksaqwHy2FDKtd8brkmGhMz-Opt0WvfGWdpNDVxs0XJcVFmx5FlD14gHlzzefrwjhYIF/s1600/cibqoq95i6sqi5so.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 235px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwXz65LyAuBY4Lmc8OZxXf4QtHHbN4q_yh8jdP64VaLnIDBCuXfRbNQyrHFtFX_AIgAMK1CsaOsksaqwHy2FDKtd8brkmGhMz-Opt0WvfGWdpNDVxs0XJcVFmx5FlD14gHlzzefrwjhYIF/s320/cibqoq95i6sqi5so.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5547595688594020754" border="0" /></a>Just thought I would share a little of the splurge of the week with you... Christian Bale on the cover of Esquire! The article was good.... but the pictures were better! :)<br /><br />This week felt successful.... but only when it came to working out. I worked out 5 days last week! Let me just say, I loved it!! I tried something different every day, and just had fun while I did it. Some days were hard, some days I did not want to do it at all, and one day I bribed myself out of bed with the promise of Mint <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Oreos</span> after the work out. Counterproductive? Most defiantly!<br /><br />Last week I decided to focus on the work out part only. Here is what my weight is looking like:<br /><br />Start weight: 230.5<br />Week 3: 223<br />Total Loss: -7.5<br /><br />No loss and no gain. I stayed the same. I actually am not too upset with that. I ate a lot of crap last week! I know I did not use the excuse that I worked out therefore I could eat what I wanted... I really think I just did not care. I need to change that! I know I would have lost weight if I watched what I ate along with working out. I am really good at sabotaging myself.<br /><br />This week starts with Zumba! I did post the workouts I did last week in the post before this one. Check it out! I have been having so much fun working out with my friend!!<br /><br />What I accomplished last week:<br />* Set a goal to work out more and stayed with it!!<br /><br />Goals for this week:<br />* Put focus back on eating right.<br />* Continue my workout routine.<br /><br />I know that the Weight Watchers diet changed. I can not wait to read all about it! :)CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-43596736988828447952010-12-04T07:52:00.001-08:002010-12-04T07:58:05.906-08:00Working Out<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhq7BIBy1mOVmeHmrUwpHoq5qBOnNXV1ChNpJEKSYwc1x3-4eV-hz-_jHHdwT8DJU-YsMYdiz5JCalqjZHhGNaV42sDWWVtQKVXURPhImCrJEKaQ85I3zyHM1Bk1KIGU3y4xZLWmWj0p0Eo/s1600/images.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 241px; height: 209px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhq7BIBy1mOVmeHmrUwpHoq5qBOnNXV1ChNpJEKSYwc1x3-4eV-hz-_jHHdwT8DJU-YsMYdiz5JCalqjZHhGNaV42sDWWVtQKVXURPhImCrJEKaQ85I3zyHM1Bk1KIGU3y4xZLWmWj0p0Eo/s320/images.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5546855733415166178" border="0" /></a><br />I know... I know... I said I was going to focus on working out this week...<br /><br />AND I DID!! :)<br /><br />Here is what my week looked like.<br /><br />Monday- 1 mile with Leslie Sansone, 10 min abs<br />Tuesday- 30 min of body <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">sculpting</span>, 10 min abs<br />Wednesday- Introduction to <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Tae</span> Bo (which made me hurt!), 10 min abs<br />Thursday- 20 min shred with Jillian<br />Friday- off<br />Saturday- Yoga<br />Sunday- it is yet to be seen. :)<br /><br />Just thought I would share my week so far with you! Now lets not talk about diet.... :)CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-81258793290191934042010-11-29T18:17:00.000-08:002010-11-29T18:36:49.399-08:00Weigh in... Week 3Is it fair that I have to weigh in the week after Thanksgiving!? The answer will have to be YES!! :)<br /><br />Here are my stats:<br />Start weight: 230.5<br />Week 3: 223<br />Total Loss: -7.5<br /><br />That means I lost .5 lbs!! I will take it! I have to be proud of this loss because, well, lets just say I gave us when Thanksgiving hit and had a hard time coming back! I guess that is what starting a diet is all about though, isn't it? Starting over when you stumble. I will not say fall because I did not try to go crazy, but I did stumble from Thursday through Sunday.<br /><br />Why is this diet so hard? People every day walk around skinny and beautiful. Why do I have such a hard time accomplishing what come so naturally to so many people? I guess the only answer I have for myself... if I am going to be honest, FOOD TASTES SO GOOD!!! I love my food covered and smothered in cheese, bacon, and sour cream! To say to me that I could never have anything that gives me so much pleasure again makes my heart start to pound and I can feel my body go into panic mode. So what I have to do is to learn to control. I have to learn to make better choices. I have to learn to tell the difference between hunger and filling a void. I can do all of that, I just hope it does not take a lifetime.<br /><br />Things I accomplished last week-<br />* Losing .5 even during a holiday!<br />* Coming up with a work out plan!<br /><br />Things I commit to this week-<br />* I will continue to record what I eat.<br />* I will stick to my work out plan. :)<br /><br />Work out plan, you say? Why yes!! If you know anything about me you will know that the thing I dread most about weight loss is knowing that I will have to work out! I have a wonderful neighbor who has agreed to be my work out buddy. I am so excited about this! I will have to be available and heald accountable by someone who I do not want to let down! We have agreed to do videos, and between the two of us we have some fun things to try! I am so excited for the first time in my life to look at a work out as something to look forward to. :) I am looking at it as social time with a friend with a little sweat involved. :)<br /><br />I am also excited to see the results next weigh in.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT7WhRqcPEeqdR-iBa7tv4bl6bpqZzYk6BjSoZmdb9bgVyb9hb41MxiuH9m5OkPODEoMV-hkvFMzdj2yT8TBvjh8TaG-oo54MLU_Uaq2u4OO1_o1TEYd5xwqaSof7A81jbSAmWDGLuk8W4/s1600/Adie%252C+Thanksgiving+029.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT7WhRqcPEeqdR-iBa7tv4bl6bpqZzYk6BjSoZmdb9bgVyb9hb41MxiuH9m5OkPODEoMV-hkvFMzdj2yT8TBvjh8TaG-oo54MLU_Uaq2u4OO1_o1TEYd5xwqaSof7A81jbSAmWDGLuk8W4/s320/Adie%252C+Thanksgiving+029.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5545165669939335842" border="0" /></a>Now this, this is the face that makes it all worth it! :)CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-994530123640843342010-11-22T16:57:00.000-08:002010-11-22T17:18:23.557-08:00Second Weigh In<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitAeVlHGheYiaD1Y3Ue_4O5ykeHzdYnukFNlq_DPOhKlZ4RStZina-_iLKNQ48sqtzMgSVOCJalJq7NLU6GU9NYZzjyDkaghG_QskPOMeJf7w2X1VXObqJSj1wSe7ObROR0W93kiON5qon/s1600/750px-US_223.svg.png"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 256px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitAeVlHGheYiaD1Y3Ue_4O5ykeHzdYnukFNlq_DPOhKlZ4RStZina-_iLKNQ48sqtzMgSVOCJalJq7NLU6GU9NYZzjyDkaghG_QskPOMeJf7w2X1VXObqJSj1wSe7ObROR0W93kiON5qon/s320/750px-US_223.svg.png" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5542543504984388786" border="0" /></a><br />Yup! There it is, 223 (add .5). I did not gain this week or lose this week. I stayed the same. Which I guess I could consider a minor success seeing that I did not stick with my goals and many days I let my feelings get the better of me.<br /><br />What do I mean by letting my feelings get the better of me? Well... I guess you could say I was feeling melancholy all week. I think it was the stress of going back to work with the realization of just how much my life has changed! Not that I am sad about my beautiful daughter at all! I think you morn what you lose no matter if what it is replaced with is a million times better or not. I love Adie with all my heart. She is now my reason for getting up in the mornings!<br /><br />...but I do morn going out whenever I want. I do morn not having to be available to someone or a machine every 2 hours to feed or pump. I do morn not having the guilt I now feel (even though I know it is not always justified) that I am somehow doing everything as a mother wrong. I do morn... well I could go on and on. It is a huge adjustment and sometimes I feel so alone in making it.<br /><br />I also think I set my goal a little high at working out 5 days last week. I did not realize how much energy it would take to go back to work! My goodness!! And to think I did it all the time with out a thought before I was pregnant! :)<br /><br />My weight chart has not changed:<br />Start weight: 230.5<br />Week 1: 223.5<br />Total Loss: -7<br /><br />Things I accomplished last week-<br />* I went back to work.<br /><br />Things I commit to this week-<br />* I will exercise when I can. I will set my goal low... 2 day this week.<br />* I will continue to stay in the points.<br />* I will continue to record what I eat.<br /><br />This week I am also making a vow:<br />* I vow to stay positive. Nothing that I have lost brings me more joy that Adie does. I will vow to focus on what I do have and not what I feel I have lost. :)<br /><br />...and I get to have Thanksgiving with my Family! I could not be more excited!!!!<br /><br />Thank you all for your support through out the week! I could not be on this adventure with out you!!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-83805759159688275762010-11-15T06:15:00.000-08:002010-11-15T07:07:09.422-08:00First Weigh In.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh37gXBxw4fiTe1j5oE_z3qNYYVfY9jTjSBS6Mwahrvlr9rWkTvaHP_gYF5Ge4dtialx9k7b_2-AKC8nVUxMCdGRbKb7ws3WU3KQ3QdbcDEFq1rM8TOb_cyqSzC3K-QsQTi9f1r0bMrX752/s1600/weight-loss-programs.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 270px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh37gXBxw4fiTe1j5oE_z3qNYYVfY9jTjSBS6Mwahrvlr9rWkTvaHP_gYF5Ge4dtialx9k7b_2-AKC8nVUxMCdGRbKb7ws3WU3KQ3QdbcDEFq1rM8TOb_cyqSzC3K-QsQTi9f1r0bMrX752/s320/weight-loss-programs.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539780732506533330" border="0" /></a><br />I was so excited to weigh in this morning and I can truly say that has never happened before! I have been feeling good about this go-around in dieting and I think it has to do with my wonderful support group! I could not do this with out your encouragement and love.<br /><br />So here it is before I ramble on forever... :)<br />Start weight: 230.5<br />Week 1: 223.5<br />Total Loss: -7<br /><br />What is that you say!? Down 7 pounds!? Yes I am!! I know that there will never be a loss this great. I always lose the most the first week. However, I am proud.<br /><br />Things I accomplished last week-<br />* I did not cheat at all. I stayed with in my points.<br />* I continued to focus on the over all goal.<br /><br />Things I commit to this week-<br />* I will exercise 5 days this week.<br />* I will continue to stay in the points.<br /><br />I start back at work today. I am excited to go back and see all of the people that I have missed. I know though that as much as I have missed them over 8 weeks I will miss my Adie more. What can I say, I love that girl!! My concern is that I will hit the wall where I get a little depressed and want to comfort myself with food. I guess we will just have to see what this week brings. :)CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-15975810866656292282010-11-12T20:25:00.000-08:002010-11-12T20:53:47.294-08:00How can something with out a mouth scream so loud!?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7W72IJ-b9ZNHEtAlzRYTajSQ7XRuTSYAyqC_DRdZ7qWyJVB2qMZWNEPjarp8cjoXKxIYhO8skmRTiG9BLJvg4COyT0uzmAYe55BtBb8sMetYGxi911Fev7PDN53kJKwWRVS9z4kOYz_5r/s1600/cookie-monster-400-1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 288px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7W72IJ-b9ZNHEtAlzRYTajSQ7XRuTSYAyqC_DRdZ7qWyJVB2qMZWNEPjarp8cjoXKxIYhO8skmRTiG9BLJvg4COyT0uzmAYe55BtBb8sMetYGxi911Fev7PDN53kJKwWRVS9z4kOYz_5r/s320/cookie-monster-400-1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5538886740217901122" border="0" /></a><br />I was talking with my friend yesterday about cravings and we got to talking about that cookie on the counter. You know the one I am talking about... the one that you know you should not have, but somehow it knows your name and it can call it really loud!<br /><br />What do you do with that cookie? Do you resist it or do you give into its cries? I have tried so many things not to give in... even to the point of destroying it before putting it in the trash, because lets be honest even in the trash it was still calling my name unless I made it in editable!<br /><br />The only solution that I have found was not to keep it in the house. It is nice to have a husband that does not have a sweet tooth because he will not go out and buy the items that I should not have. However that does not stop me from wanting to grab my keys and run to the grocery store and pick up that doughnut. So where is the happy medium? I can not have no sweets in the house because I will go out and binge, but I also can not keep them in the house because I will eat everything.<br /><br />I think the best solution is to find low fat, low point items that will curve the cravings. Recently I have discovered 100cal Kettle Corn mini bags and Cheesecake fat free- sugar free pudding. That has really been helping. The portions are good and they satisfy the cravings. Does anyone have any other ideas? What do you like to curve your cravings?CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-5169369589506257382010-11-09T15:13:00.000-08:002010-11-09T16:01:32.334-08:00Starting PhotosWARNING:<br />These photos are not for people with weak stomachs.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicBq__Q7-dXUP3AzlNsL6yNorT62kWgmFvHMFcHKzRYnYRUpNVb4CdLj6fMo6OPI9DCbWuHhkxbbTahQIlLUsr1yQD1_508cIPDhQmnOFy-jW-UbdVVCJS9bfa1Wiw0wkyR95CZ_hHY9ut/s1600/Weight+photos+003.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicBq__Q7-dXUP3AzlNsL6yNorT62kWgmFvHMFcHKzRYnYRUpNVb4CdLj6fMo6OPI9DCbWuHhkxbbTahQIlLUsr1yQD1_508cIPDhQmnOFy-jW-UbdVVCJS9bfa1Wiw0wkyR95CZ_hHY9ut/s320/Weight+photos+003.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5537693658373811538" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkkMwWbgzpRx_CO0acHXjHJGAiBhXwbM21DThrVVYJfuLOydqZ5ofkXyTaY7G6fxPmpk2BpvgMC_1O8g5bFLVimzPZv0keZ6WkbVM91srhN5L7u9K2BWVtJFDvB5BVIOAGOK6zkOeGOK_z/s1600/Weight+photos+002.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkkMwWbgzpRx_CO0acHXjHJGAiBhXwbM21DThrVVYJfuLOydqZ5ofkXyTaY7G6fxPmpk2BpvgMC_1O8g5bFLVimzPZv0keZ6WkbVM91srhN5L7u9K2BWVtJFDvB5BVIOAGOK6zkOeGOK_z/s320/Weight+photos+002.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5537693256307861170" border="0" /></a><br />Scary! I know!!<br /><br />I feel ashamed and disappointed in myself when I look at these photos. I think those are the right emotions to feel though. I think with out feeling them, I would not have that drive to continue on.<br /><br />In this picture I am wearing Size 16 ANA Jeans and a XL shirt. This would be a outfit that I would wear before I was pregnant. FIRST GOAL: Fit into my pre pregnancy cloths. <br /><br />I was able to remain positive all day yesterday! Things went really well. I took my Grandma to dinner and since I knew where she wanted to go I was able to pre plan for that meal and eat my other meals according. It went well! I stayed in my points. Here is the sad thing about yesterday... and this will go to show you just how strong my addiction to food is. After dinner with Grandma I was feeling good and full. However, on the way home the sick thing that ran through my head was "Oooohhh I am passing a Wendy's" "Yum, I could go for some Burger King." REALLY? What the hell is wrong with me! There is my sturggle in my head every moment of my life!<br /><br />Today has been going well. I have plenty of points remaining! Hummmm... what to eat for dinner!?CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-2500205369980642012010-11-08T07:22:00.000-08:002010-11-08T07:26:04.201-08:00Starting WeightToday is the day.... I got my starting weight.<br /> Here it is....<br /> 230.5<br /><br />I am <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">shocked</span>that the number does not scare me. I am not sure if it because I know how bad things got, or if I just know that it can only get better from here.<br /><br />I am feeling very positive about this. I know the first day is always the easiest. You have the excitement of starting something new. Talk to me in a few days, we will see if this positive attitude will continue. :)CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6376037290401294861.post-13741623428276732512010-11-07T18:59:00.000-08:002010-11-07T19:23:54.080-08:00Journey to the dream weight.Please follow me on my weight loss journey. Help me by keeping me accountable.<br /><br />Why Miss. Moneypenny speaks? Because I like her! She was 007's go to person. She was the silent beauty in the background of his life and I love her for that. I know that in my mind I will never see myself as I should. Sadly, as a woman, I will never see myself the way other people see me. With my weight loss I would love to be that silent beauty in the background. A person that is beautiful inside and out but does not need to flaunt it. We all know I am not silent in voice, but hopefully I will find myself humble and happy with the hard work this will take and the progress I make.<br /><br />How did I get to this awful weight? I do not know the answer to that question, but I do know when it got out of control. When we found out that my mother had a time limit on her life, my entire world went out of control. As I tried to keep my feelings and thoughts in check my focus on food and amounts I would consume went out the window. I did not care how I looked. I did not care how I felt. All I cared about was that the world saw my life as in-control while it was spiraling out. When she passed away I did not know where to turn, so my choice was food. I found comfort for that empty space in my heart with food.<br /><br />It has now been almost four years since she has passed away. At the age of 30 I found out I was pregnant and as the realization hit me that she would not be able to share in the joy of her first grandchild with me, I ate anything and everything I wanted during the pregnancy.<br /><br />My Adelyne is going to be 7 weeks old on Tuesday and that hole in my heart that I have been stuffing with food has finally found a healthy replacement. I never thought it would be possible that I could fill that space with love, but it has happened. Adelyne is my blessing, my joy, and my new love.<br /><br />I can now see the destruction that I have done to my body. This is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done! Food is my drug and comfort. Learning to control what is out of control is going to be difficult, but with my heart healing and the pieces of my life starting to come together I feel this is the perfect time to start this journey.<br /><br />My plan is to do Weight Watchers. Once I can get my eating under control I will add in more and more exercise.<br /><br />This is for you Adie. I want you to be proud of your mother and know that hard work no matter how impossible feeling will pay off!CherryChildhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02349237479898548326noreply@blogger.com0