Believe

Sometimes it takes someone else to believe in you before you can believe in yourself.... and sometimes that is not even enough. You all believed in me, and I felt I let you down when the weight would not come off. I wanted to be strong, I wanted it not to bother me, but it did... so I did what I do best, I gave up.

I will no longer allow that for myself. I can not give up! I have someone that depends on me and the way I have been treating myself will only harm her in the long run. Since January I have let myself go, and with that i have almost put all of the weight back on. Not only have I put the weight back on, but I no longer wear makeup, do my hair, or care what I look like when I leave the house. Touch of depression? Possibly. More likely it is a case of focusing on everything else in my life except myself. From school, to my first job, to my second job,... to my third job and my beautiful 7 month old baby I have taken all focus off myself and have in my mind become invisible.

I am not invisible. I am here and worth being looked at.

What I ask of you, my friends, please do not give up on me! I can do this with your help and support. :)

Good news... I now use my outlook calendar and have my blog and weigh in scheduled for every week! If you do not see my post... bother me until you do! :)

I love you all--thank you for everything!